Because I am in no sort of emotional state right now to write how I'm really feeling (yes, denial is not just a river in Egypt), I would like to say three things about what I've seen popping up in my Blogger Stats (lets me know my hits, sourcing sites and google searches which lead to my blog- also, I have readers in Russia?) over the last few days.
1) Sarah was so, SO loved. If you are reading this blog because you googled her name and found my writings about her, I want you to know that I am humbled by that.
2) To the person who googled "ichy rash from eating blueberries" and then found my blog: I hope you didn't get scared silly and stay up all night terrified that you have leukemia. You probably don't. Go see your doctor and stop googling, though.
3) To the person who googled "feeling in the dark about bone marrow transplant": I really, really hope that my posts have helped you somehow. That maybe you're a little less in the dark. You have a friend in me, you are not alone.
This week has been intense, sad, inspiring and uplifting for both P and I. Hopefully I can find the calm to write more intimately.
For now, Much Love to you. And I really, really mean that.