Gonna keep this short and sassy:
Didn't really sleep well alst night because I was so anxious about this morning, maybe averaged 2 or 3 sold hours even with the ambien (no naked drive though, thank goodness) but I got a solid two hour nap in this afternoon so I'm not too zonked. Day -6 (6 days pre-transplant) went a little something like this: 4 am vitals. 5 am Zofran. 6 am chemo. 7 am amost-puke/ Compazine. 7:15am onwards, feelin' restless and goofy from the Compazine, chemo and presence in a fucking hospital. The medical staff and volunteers here are wonderful- I now have a keyboard in my closet to play as soon as I don't feel like I'm gonna yam on it:) P left for a few hours to run errands and I spent my time crying, trying not to puke, feeling sorry for myself, trying to sleep and being bored out of my bald little skull. This will get better, this will pass but it sucks balls at the moment.
I'll try to post more tomorrow but for now I'm gonna go stick my head in a basin and pray to jesus/buddah/allah/krishna that I don't lose my few bites of lunch. OH, and I get to pee in a measurey thing in the toilet, it's weird. Just thought I'd share. Thanks for the texts and calls y'all, I'm sorry I can't respond:( Much love!
you're absolutely right, laura ... this will pass. this is temporary. SUNNY days ahead. keep telling yourself that. i'm sending sunny vibes from PA.
ReplyDeletexoxo
i'll keep texting, etc. whether you respond or not. :o) i know you're there, getting it and you have a mission. keep on, hon! hold down that lunch!
ReplyDeleteSending hugs and positive energy your way:) Don't worry about responding to the texts and calls, just focus on you. We are all here for you guys:)
ReplyDeleteXOXO
Sending bright positive vibes your way too my friend! Hang in there and know we are thinking of you everyday:-) Miss and Love ya!
ReplyDeleteXOXO
Christie
You are one of the most inspiring and strongest people I know. You will beat this.
ReplyDelete